Wow. This one makes me a little sad. I get it, but have always believed that women wear makeup mostly for other women, not for men. I (and I believe most men) don't even notice it. I personally prefer natural looks rather than layers of gook. I understand the unattainable beauty standards that women are held to, and I agree it is awful. I'm glad you are embracing this stage and seriously doubt it is "ugly". I hope this doesn't sound as if written from a patriarchal point of view, certainly not my intent.